I've had a lot of crooks try to still my heart. Could never really figure out how to love, how to love. I've had a lot of moments that didn't last forever... But that's never stopped me from trying. I'll never give up on love whether I find it or not, it won't stop me. I'm not a quitter. And I've played many parts, never the leading lady. I've been through hell and back. And for about eight years I've felt death was near, my health hasn't gotten any better but my hopes have. But I don't like to take one moment for granted. I live for today, forget about tomorrow, and forget about yesterday. Who I am is here, subtitled in every post, every picture, every half smile, every fake smile, every cry for help (which can occasionally be frequent), and every random lyric or poem. I am who I am, and other though I have changed due to others' influence I'm my own person. I love with my whole heart and fight through every day just to keep someone else smile. There's a few people I care about more than anything, and for them I'd literally do anything. I'm not skinny, I'm not blonde haired or blue eyed, I'm not cheer leader type. I'm like a fat red-headed Taylor Swift. Don't put me down, you have NO idea what I've been through. <3

E-mail: kmlynch1224@yahoo.com
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100 Random Facts About Me.

In no particular order, just as I think of them. Trying to make myself more open…

1. I play solitare or mahjong tiles when upset, confused, sad, lonely, or sometimes just really bored.
2. I lie to myself at least 100 times a day.
3. I have a hard time geting over things.
4. I don’t know who I am yet.
5. I love easily, and break even easier.
6. I love cute things.
7. I’m afraid of dogs.
8. I’m afraid of the dark..
9. I’m afraid of clowns
10. I’m afraid of zombies.
11. I’m terrified of zombie-clowns.
12. I love my friends to no end.
13. Music is my life, it feeds my soul.
14. I love rockband, but I’m terrified of playing above medium.
15. I love singing, but I’m terrified of singing in front of people.
16. I carry ever insult ever thrown at me every where I go.
17. I carry a lot of emotional baggage.
18. I will never get over my grandfather’s death.
19. My grandfather was behind everything I’ve ever loved, he raised me.
20. My parents weren’t around much when I was growing up.
21. My father has missed most of my birthdays.
22. I date scumbags, but fall for Prince Charmings.
23. I’ve never truely found love, it finds me but goes unnoticed.
24. I hate pick-up lines, but get all giddy when they’re used towards me.
25. I love Rise Against.
26. Mayday Parade is one of my favorite bands.
27. I grew up on Country and Rock&Roll, now I’m a little bit of everything.
28. I ruin friendships.
29. I let my emotions get in my way.
30. I’m a pretty abusive person, but I try not to be.
31. I hate scary movies, because I’m terrified of everything.
32. I hate snakes!
33. I’m afraid of spiders.
34. I’m allergic to bees.
35. I’m allergic to pollen.
36. I’m allergic to cats.
37. I’m allergic to dust.
38. I’ve never been tested for food allergies.
39. I get chronic migranes and stress headaches every day of my life.
40. I almost died when my appendix burst because my mother wouldn’t take me to the hospital.
41. I get ovarian cysts.
42. I currently have a cyst on my foot that might never go away.
43. I express my feelings through singing Taylor Swift & Jordyn Shellhart songs in the shower.
44. I love drawing cartoons.
45. I paint.
46. I hate rude people.
47. I’m pretty quiet when I’m uncomfortable.
48. Sometimes I can be quite annoying.
49. Sometimes I hate myself.
50. I wrote a whole story about the guy I like who’s my best friend.
51. I could not live without my cute little green ipod nano.
52. I love undiscovered bands, once they get discovered they’re ruined for me though.
53. I hate when things you love become popular.
54. I read the Twilight series, loved it, Saw the movies, it became popular, now I don’t hate anything in the world more.
55. I have wished I was Bella before..
56. I love to read books, no matter how big or small.
57. I hate when people ruin endings for me.
58. I love girly movies.
59. I used to be a tomboy before it was cool, now I’m kind of girly and thats no better.
60. I hate who I appear to be.
61. I hae people who judge by apperances.
62. I hate people who don’t give people second chances.
63. I give other people way too many chances, but don’t give enough to myself.
64. I’m pretty mean in my head, but try not to let it come out my mouth.
65. I like to keep bad comments to myself, but when other people say other things first I normally can’t help it.
66. I though I had found Mr. Right, but I guess not…
67. I love unsweetened ice-tea.
68. I’m a big tea drinker.
69. I love cookies.
70. Every year I get an ice cream cake on my birthday.
71. I love my grandma sooo much, our birthdays are one day apart.
72. My grandma is my inspiration to keep moving forward.
73. I’m borderline diabetic.
74. I need to lose weight.
75. My hair is naturally wayyy too curly.
76. Sometimes I need space to breathe.
77. Most times I can’t stand being alone.
78. I cry a lot.
79. I’m an emotional wreck.
80. I get estrogen induced headaches.
81. I pass out a lot.
82. I once passed out at Hoffman’s Playland.
83. I love playing football
84. I’m actually pretty good at sports.
85. I love volleyball.
86. I cry myself to sleep almost everynight.
87. I snore.
88. I fight in my sleep.
89. While sleeping I tend to cuddle up to anything in reach.
90. I can’t sleep alone.
91. I’m an insomiac.
92. I’m more interesting in learning about others than myself.
93. I dying to learn how to play the guitar and/or the piano.
94. Sometimes I lie but I don’t mean to…
95. I have six kids I call my own, but they’re not.
96. I want to believe in God, but can’t find it in me.
97. I can’t remember my first kiss.
98. I’m broken inside and out.
99. I lose everyone I ever love.
100. I hate love.

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